Somewhat of a Coincidence

        I was looking at the last post that I just wrote and {re[re]}read the quote about Alison's habit of doing something and then finding a reason for why, and it reminded me of my last desk crit with my professor. I had been stuck on my building design for a couple days but our next big review day had crept up and I had nothing new to present. I tried for hours to produce something with meaning in every line, but had not gotten out of my rut. In the wee hours of the morning I eventually resigned to just making something that I thought would be appealing at the very least and decided to wing it when describing its merit. I eventually had to discuss what I had done with my professor and successfully evaded the situation with an articulate dosage of somewhat bullshit. I realized that this book [The Magus] has made me reflect on all of the times I have done that to give myself more time. I related this to the way that Nicholas recognized his cynicism as an inability to cope, and I came to the conclusion that I wholeheartedly agreed. I had wasted hours being cynical about my work. Just sitting and staring at it while hoping that something would just autonomously manifest itself infront of me on my desk. Once I accepted that all I could do was produce something and hope for something to come out of it, everything just kind of fell together into something discussable that lead to my skyscrapers thesis. I think it was Chuck Close that said, "Inspiration is for amateurs. The rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightening to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself.”